Bye Christmas!

Hey everyone,

Thought I'd pop in with a quick post considering I have yet again deserted you for way too long.

I hope everyone enjoyed their Christmas, I spent mine with the kids and as much fun as it was I am now suffering a great deal! lol

I am off to Leeds for New Years Eve on Sunday too, myself and Joe have done all the rounds to visit the family this year.  We've been Chingford, Crawley, Braintree, Basildon, Woolwich and next stop is Leeds.  Travelling is making my aches and pains so, so bad but I thought I would try it this year as I don't get out much anymore and what better time than Christmas!

I am typing this on my new laptop, how exciting is that ;)

Anyway it is nearly 12 so I am going to get comfy in bed and read my new Kindle :)

Super happy Christmas is over for another year, not sure if I am ready for New Years Eve yet though!

much love L.Ux

The S word

It's 21/12/12 and I'm still alive, are you? ;-)

I can't sleep tonight Helico bacter Pylori's fury is keeping me awake and I'm getting more and more anxious at the thought of my hospital appointment tomorrow morning. All I need is to be pulled about when I'm ratty due to lack of sleep!

Why am I so scared of not being able to sleep. Someone hypnotise me please?

Anyway. This hospital appointment I'm fluffing my blog up with by moaning about is completely unrelated to my HPB, this appointments for my other wonderful body defect that also happens to begin with H. Is there any disease or condition that I don't have? - That begins with H anyway... ;-)

My life is so boring at the moment I literally have NOTHING to write home about. Even that saying has depressed me as, there is no need to write home regardless of the lack of rainbows and unicorns in my life as I am stuck there 24/7 feeling sorry for myself anyway, Yay ;-)

2013 is coming soon and I'll be 23 early February. I keep thinking I only have one life and I want to make it count but I do not see a light at the end of this dark, dismal tunnel I've found my self in for what seems like forever. I've forgotten what the sun shine looks like. My emotions are on a constant yo-yo and that's no surprise really as I'm not sleeping or eating much at all.

I love my food and I certainly love my sleep so I'm not functioning as I'd like to at all! Damn you body why do you have to be so un cooperative?

Blogging is my only way to vent all my frustrations about my life at the moment and even that is proving difficult for me. Who wants to read my crazy, self pity rambles?! - I think I just have the biggest desire to let people know what I'm going through. It's so easy to judge people these days and to assume you know what goes on behind closed doors. I know by far my life isn't half as bad as others, as selfish as it sounds that thought alone is what keeps me going.

It's almost 3 o clock in the morning now so actually the 22nd and I'm tap, tap, tapping away on my phone. Someone shoot me with a tranquilliser? P L E A S E?

And the panic has trickled in again. The hospital tomorrow is going to just top the cherry on my tired state of ice cream mind IF... I don't get some sleep soon.

How do you get over phobia's? I literally feel sick at the thought of not being able to sleep. I'm so weird!
I ask myself what will make me feel better... 1) Sleep, 2) Sleep, 3) SLEEP! Ahh!

Well, my stomach has settled ever so slightly so here's attempt 352 of sleep. (Please say I didn't speak to soon, sleep needs to hurry!)

Yet again, the S word! SLEEP!!!

Good night and if you managed to read all of this without falling asleep I think we could be great friends! Lol X

L.Ux

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What drives me mad about social networking and the internet

Writing Like This It's Annoying And Pointless Why Do You Do It? You Don't Talk Like This Do You? It Also Makes You Look Really D U M B, it's ok for a status I guess but not in a text, mate stop it!

#Hash #tagging #on #facebook, oh my god. Acceptable on instagram, JUST. Please leave it for Twitter!

'Add me on Twitter' erm, no! Lol

Pop ups

'Like this/RT this is you love your Nan and don't want her to die' oh quick, oh my lord, do it!!!

'Can you find the number 8 in this line of 3's?
333333333833333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333
Well done you are amazing now email this to 10 friends or a little girl with no eyes and a sharp stick will appear at the end of your bed at 12 o' clock whispering "I want your eyes and if you struggle I'll take your toe nails too" ... oh my God my internet suddenly went down, I'm totally sleeping with the light on tonight! ... Oh heck, I'm going the internet cafe!

Up loading pictures of your food. Okay so I am totally guilty of this! Food is my life and I want to make people jealous of what I'm about to gobble up... and lets face it, it's a much more healthier hobby than only ever going on Facebook/twitter to let everyone know you're thinking of your dog in heaven that died 4 years and 32 days ago at that precise hour, minute and second! 'RIP Bingo, hope God gives you lots of bones!' you're dog can't read it because it's a dog.  A DEAD DOG.

'Hey, someone's been saying nasty things about you...'

Celebrity impersonators

*logs into Facebook, puts status* ... 'It's raining!' Thanks for that, I must put a window on my Christmas list next year to save you the trouble in the future

User name squatters. You think of the most amazing name ever but someone else with 1 tweet from 6 years ago has it! Why?!!!! I feel so violated!

WrItInG In A MiXtUrE Of UpPEr CaSe AnD LoWeR CaSe, almost as annoying as Writing Like This, at least WhEn YoU wRiTe LiKe ThIs It LoOKs like you're trying to do something arty I guess...

'HBD!' Omg it's Happy Birthday lol!

L.Ux

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