Random | The blogger iPad app

Hi, sorry for the lack of posts again.  I did actually write a few posts on the blogger iPad app and I was so happy with them as they were super positive and that's what I'm aiming for right now but then technology took over and deleted every single post! I was so angry, I instantly deleted the app, (well I say instantly) I panic clicked around for a bit in disbelief, 'they must still be there, they must still be there' but they had well and truly gone.

VANISHED. Britain's got Talents magician has competition type vanished.

Needless to say I left a very nice review on the app in the App Store...

But yes that is why I had that blog break, it was frustrating as hell and I needed time to get over that little mishap before I wrote again. Lol.

In my favourite of the posts I created I wrote about my decision to kiss goodbye to 'Fridays letters' and start a new Friday feature called 'Hello Friday'.  Again this post got deleted so you'll have to wait until I do one again on Friday to see what that's all about.

I have so much going on right now in my medical and personal life that everything has been a bit too hectic to find time to blog too. Excuses, excuses I know but... I can't divulge into some things that I really want to talk about with you just yet but watch, watch, watch this space as when I can tell you all of this information I will be shouting from the rooftops, mountains and moon.  #excitingtimesahead

I had the most AWFUL experience at my GP's on Friday.  I've had a few problems that they now have to keep a close eye on, I'm trying to not worry about it but it is playing on my mind, however after this appointment I never want to go back!

I mentioned my hay fever was playing up terribly as I have quite bad asthma too.  He wouldn't even talk to me about hay fever medication he just moaned at me because I'd asked for new asthma inhalers off of my repeat.  I apologised (now asking myself why I apologised?!) and I explained I was getting through my inhalers quicker as I always do this time of year so maybe some hay fever medication would help me not have to rely on it so much? in response he sighed thumped his hands on his desk and said what do you want me to give you for it? - erm hello, do you not have a doctors degree? No? Who are you and what did you do with the GP?

I said I don't know what you can give me but you've just moaned at me for asking for a repeat of my inhalers that I need at least 6 times a day to be able to just breathe which is quite essential in life, if this is such an issue what do you suggest I do? He huffed again so I just said don't bother and walked out.  I also never mentioned that a random urine sample was left on the side from what I can imagine was a previous appt.  absolutely useless man with a moronic attitude, if I die of a lung related thing anytime soon he is responsible!

Anyway glad I got that off of my chest. Look out for Fridays post and for the record, I've typed this on Safari through my iPad so I have had no auto correct which sadly I rely on far too much these days so sorry again if this is swimming in poor grammar and spelling!

L.Ux

Beauty | Goodbye eye bags

Before/After

I thought I'd throw the picture in right at the start so I couldn't chicken out... I haven't had my eyebrows shaped, you can see the birth mark on my neck and well of course no makeup... but... to show you the final results the picture had to be uploaded!

I wanted to show you the effect Bare Minerals Stroke of Light Eye Brightener has had on the horrible dark circles I have under my eyes.

I have pretty much translucent skin and a lack of sleep and lots of stress adds to the bags I have under my eyes.  I don't mean to blow my own trumpet BUT I do look really young for my age, however the give away clue is my eye bags.  This is why I had to do something about them fast!

In the above picture, in the 'after' shot, All I have on is the Bare Minerals Stroke of Light Eye Brightener nothing else.  To make it look more natural after I apply the eye brighter I do add my foundation which also happens to be Bare Minerals but just look at how different it looks without already!

It goes on so lightly too it is as if I'm not wearing any makeup at all.

I love, love, love this product!

Friday's Letters

Dear All, I haven't done a post like this for a very long time, how have you all been?

Dear nearest and dearest, You know who you are, thank you for making some unbearable months bearable! - my friend drew this. It makes me smile. #PUM (that's purple unicorn magic to you)

Dear Blog readers, I'm cheating and writing this in advance (it's actually Wednesday shh!) as of the 2nd of April 2014 at 11:35AM I have yet to receive a blog comment since last November, am I just terribly boring or is something not working?!! - (from here on this post has been edited on FRIDAY, live date) - I discovered I cannot comment on anyone's posts any more myself... the GFC is on some blogs but not others? I am so confused, some one shine a light on this for me?

Dear Theatre, I am visiting you tonight thanks to Kelly, excited! This is the first time I have been to the theater since getting my 'HD' glasses way back in 2011 so I will actually be able to see what's going on, yayyyy!

Dear Hair, I am sorry you had a good old chop at the hair dressers on Tuesday.  5 and a half inches.  I want you to grow back very quickly please because I hate it. HATE IT. I actually have taken to hiding in my room (more than before).

Happy Friday x

Invisible illness awareness

If you know me or if you read my posts you'll know of my medical conditions.

I'm not posting this to bore you or make you feel depressed I just wanted to share something quite personal to me with you. Sometimes my condition gets me down. VERY DOWN.

It's not just the pain, it's the way people are towards me in regards to it. Don't get me wrong the handful of supportive people I do have mean the world to me but just one negative comment from the people who don't care to understand can knock me for six.

You know how I feel about words and 'getting it out there'. Some people use song writing, blogging or poetry as a form of release and last year I wrote a poem when I felt really low about it all. It helped me to get all my feelings out in an artistic way and it also helps when I read back on it.

I haven't read it for a while but I came across it the other day and have decided that I would like to share it with you.  It was written a long time ago but I think it emphasizes how alone I felt at that moment in time.  It's not a nice place to be mentally.

So here it goes;

  When I'm gone you'll all miss me, 

not because you loved me but because you'll feel guilty.

You'll ask yourself why you didn't take the time?

Why you didn't listen or check if I was fine.

Every day I wake up wanting out of this skin,

I want to live a proper life but where do I begin?

Painkillers might help numb the physical pain, 

but it's everyone's ignorance that knocks me down again and again.

Pretend I'm okay this 'moods bound to pass,'

I'm just being silly, these feelings won't last.

I should be grateful I 'don't look ill,'

HOW THE F*CK DO YOU KNOW HOW I REALLY FEEL?

I look ok on the outside, shiny and new,

therefore on the inside I'm not bruised, black and blue.

You say 'A good nights sleep will do you the world of good,'

I say so would family and friends behaving like they should.

As if having an invisible illness isn't enough to bear,

All I ask of you now is that when I am gone don't pretend that for me, you where there.

It took me a while to realise that no matter how much I prove myself and explain my symptoms, the ups and downs of the condition and everything else I could never change the ignorant peoples opinions on it.  Keep your head up and remember you're never, ever alone.  In that sea of ignorant people there is a hero.  Never give up.

Catch Up | March 2014

I cannot believe it is APRIL already? where has the first quarter of this year gone? I'm going to be thirty before I know it!

March 2014 went past pretty quick and wasn't a bad month at all.

It started off with my friends Cheryl's 25th birthday, we went to Nandos.  I haven't been since and am missing it, Withdrawal symptoms are not the one!

It was a lovely evening, we went out on her actual birthday which was a Monday night so it wasn't a late one but who can find fault in good company and chicken?!  I would upload some pictures but I looked so ill I'd rather not lol.

I took Cheryl into Ann Summers for the first time too.  She treated herself to some underwear, we didn't get to venture to anything else on this shopping trip lol.

We did delve a little bit deeper into the store but the security man walked up to us and started chatting away which was a little off putting... If you're new to the shop it's not really what you want to happen lol. I think I'll just stick to parties which my friend Kelsea now does! - If you click her name I linked it up to her Facebook page.  She's amazing I hope she does well with it!

March has been a complete eye opener for me, I don't mean to sound cheesy but I have really appreciated Kelsea and Cheryl this March.  Every bone in their body is made of pure friendship, I love them to the moon and back, a girl needs her friends <3

DRUM ROLL.....

I also went to Paris.

It was AMAZING.  We got up at 3.30AM (not so amazing) and we headed there on the Euro Star.  We only went for the day but that was enough for me.  We didn't do much walking around (thank God) we used a tour bus that we could hop on and off of, again AMAZING.  Well worth it as I see everything I wanted too and didn't need carrying home at the end of the day either.

I would love to go again, maybe for a long weekend, we didn't get to go to the top of the Eiffel tower as all the lifts were broken and I was not risking an attempt of the stairs.  I'd also like to try out Disney Land Paris if we went again, so it would have to be a L O N G weekend.

Here are some of the photos of the day... (don't ask me to identify the buildings for you)

If one more person asks me where the Hunch back is lol

Gloomy but beautiful

Was such a beautiful day

tour bus selfie

<3

By we, I mean myself, Joey, Kelly and Amy.  It was a proper little family day out.  Thanks guys I loved it!

This March also was the 18th anniversary for my Auntie and Uncles wedding.  I was Bridesmaid and looking back on the photo my Auntie uploaded on Facebook makes me feel super old! I hope they had a fantastic day :)

I'm the one in the background being a diva I assume...

Mothers day was great too.  We went out to Mama Mia's again.  I love that place, this time I took pictures of the starters which are my FAVOURITE part, you get the best of everything on a platter, my stomach is rumbling thinking of it now.

They forgot the meat balls at first but we got them eventually, the meat balls and the mushrooms are my favourite bit by far, this picture didn't include the garlic bread either!

Other than that March was pretty uneventful.  No more important events but with the weather cheering up slightly what a lovely month it was!

L.U.x