Friday's Letters

Dear Friday, You're here again, not sure if I am pleased to see you to be perfectly honest! (how crazy is that!)

Dear Spotify, Thanks for keeping me company all week, I think I'd have gone mad without music to listen to... The saying is true when you're happy you do just feel the music and when you're sad you understand the lyrics

Dear Spots, Can you please go and live on someone else's face? I'm 23 not 13

Dear readers, I am now on Bloglovin' so get lovin'

Dear Leather jacket, Please come home, Lulu misses you and if anyone has stolen it or accidentally on purpose forget to let me know they have it and have been wearing it, I will poke you in the eye, hard.

Dear people that get brave behind a keyboard, YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE AND I CAN BE JUST AS INDIRECT, life is to short to beat around the bush, enjoy it, make love not war and if you have got something to say, then say it DIRECTLY :-)

xxxx

Good things come to those who wait

Not done one of these posts since the 28th of April so I thought I would throw one in, I haven't blogged for a while as have been major busy to the point I have to check if my head is still attached to my shoulders...

I've looked at my stats and I'm still getting plenty of traffic on this blog every day so I guess I just want to say thanks for still visiting while I have a little life blip!

Hmm what's happened since my last update, A LOT, some good, some bad...

Still not sure if I am going back to the Nannying, I know in my previous post I said it was my last week, I did think it was - I need to find something more well.. stable and long term.

I had been getting excruciating stomach cramps to the point of passing out early April through to now, went to the doctors and had lots of blood taken (yay) turns out I have Coeliacs disease again, apparently you never grow out of it... Would have been nice to know that lol.  I had it as a kid, so 20 years later it decided to rear it's ugly head again.  SUFFERING TO THE POINT OF TEARS, I really just want McDonald's, like so, so badly.

I have doctors this afternoon again too, really cannot be bothered I just want to be healthy and in a proper job, getting really depressing now!  I'm going to need a wheel barrow to carry all of my medication home, boo!

HMS has not been that bad, I did however dislocate my toe lol and it's not set back properly and I'm too scared to go hospital in case they have to break it or something....

Hayley's 21st is on Saturday, I'm trying to sort music for her but I just don't know if I'm cool enough he he.

Hmm what else... Nothing much at all, I am going away in June.  Bit of sunshine and some time to their self never hurt anybody and after the last few days I think I need some time away from phones, wifi, laptops, etc, you all know the drill, not sure disappearing is going to help any of my problems but it might do me good.  It's going to be hard as anyone who knows me knows I love to talk, talk, talk but meh I'm depressed and need time out.  I have no commitments so I'll do it for myself as well as everyone listening to me moaning all the time :)

How could I forget I dyed my hair? it's still blonde but a lot darker, which is good because as good as bleach blonde looks it's expensive and annoying as hell to keep looking good! (no pictures yet... I've been feeling really self conscious lately)

AHH I also finished the Sookie Stackhouse series, totally gutted, I miss the characters already and I do feel a bit cheated out of friends (as ridiculous as that sounds) REALLY need to stop getting so attached to fictional characters... he he.

In such a bad mood, I just totally bit my Mum's head off 'Your rooms messy and it's dark' WELL YOU WOULD PAINT IT GREY WHEN I MOVED OUT!!!! booooooooooooooooo

Anyway I'll be back to normal posting soon enough, just need a bit of Lulu time.

Happy Thursdays x x x

A moment in time - 2

I totally cheated last week and only did 5 years instead of my promised 6 years a week, oh well! So I finished off in 1995. So of course 1996 continues...

1996

1996, I was 6 years old and yet again I really don't remember much at all... my days consisted of school and TV lol

In February 1996 just after my 6th birthday I went abroad with my Dad and his new fiance, erm well I think they were engaged, I'm not sure, my cousin Natalie came with us, she was 16 and my now Step Sister came along too I think she was 12 or 13, we went Florida!  I loved it and have wanted to go back ever since!  I remember sitting next to my Dad on the plane and him saying to me, 'how do you spell America?' and I thought it started with an E lol.

No horrible spiders appeared on this holiday I did see an alligator while I sat in the car though. Ahh I would love to go back now I am tall enough to actually appreciate Disney and all the rest, I remember feeding the dolphins and Sea World, I love animals!

October 1996 (may need to double check the year) My Dad got married, I had my hair in rags and it was curly for the first time ever, I remember being proper excited over it as I used to always want to be ginger and have curly hair when I grew up lol oh and freckles ha ha!

I used to be such a Daddy's girl and I remember being in my bridesmaid dress shouting up the isle just before the wedding march, 'DADDDDDDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOOK AT MY PRETTY DRESS!' couldn't take me anywhere.

1997

I was 7, this fact I know is true lol, God how have people wrote so much? I can't even remember what I did yesterday...

I think this is the year my fish died lol. I was traumatized, his name was Bubbles and I'd had him since I was 4 lol

For our summer holiday we went to Cornwall and stayed in a caravan for 2 weeks, my Mum her now husband and his 2 kids.

Every morning we would watch the Teletubbies... LOL

Don't ask why I remember this but I made friends with twins on the camp site and they tried to come in to our caravan one day and I new my Mum's boyfriend would hate it so instead of just telling them, I said 'No don't come in, a bar will fall down on you!'

My Mum's boyfriend then shouted at me so loud, telling me off, I didn't understand, I'd stopped them from coming in?! My Mum asked what was up and he said that I had said the word 'Bastard' I was beside myself, I wasn't even allowed to say the word willy! So I certainly wouldn't have said Bastard.  How funny is it that I am still really angry about it.  RGHHH lol.  Note to readers, don't upset me because I NEVER FORGET lol

1998

When I was 8 I moved out of my house in Highams Park, I was so upset, I loved that house I still do, however, my Mum sold up and bought a house with her boyfriend in Essex and that's where we still are now.

My Mum tried to sway me around to the idea by telling me I could have a pink bedroom and a bunk bed, I still just wanted my Dad back though!

I was also getting crap off of some little s*it at school, he used to tease me rotten that my Dad wasn't around anymore, my name was stupid and all the rest, kids can be so horrible! There was a kid in our class that had learning difficulties and he once told him to sharpen his pencil and stab me with it in the arm, THE PAIN!!!! he did it through my polo jumper and it bled A LOT.  I remember being really proud that I didn't cry, I proper styled it out, I just looked at the little s*it and smiled.  Later on that day I waited for him (the bully not his slave) to go to the bin and went to also sharpen my pencil, the moral of this story is, I stab back HARDER! :) he never bothered me again...

1998 was when I met my best friend Hayley too, she lived next door woo.